Nikki Evanson

In loss, there you will find grief. It can come on suddenly when we acknowledge what we have lost.  Grief can bring us to a place of great despair. It’s hard to know what to do.  I was deeply stricken by grief as I came to terms with the losses I experienced from my childhood,…

My heart was filled with deep resentment from the hurt I experienced in the past. I resented the ones who were supposed to protect me, but failed me. I grieved over the lack of relationships that were meant to show me what love and forgiveness looked like. Left with shattered hopes—fearing that I could never…

I felt like I was beyond repair; I needed to acknowledge that I had a problem, and that I couldn’t fix it on my own. I tried many times, but the compulsion to control certain things—brought on by unresolved pain from the past—overtook me.  I felt lost, and broken to the core, but knew that…

The high expectations that I had placed on myself to love others led me to think that I needed to sacrifice myself. I placed my needs and wants last, after the wants of others. Not caring for myself left me completely empty. I was exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally. I was depleted to the point…

My doubts and insecurities in my identity were leading me to feel trapped and causing me to think I could not change.  I didn’t think I could trust God to change my mindset, even if I asked him. I thought this change would be too hard, and would bring me on a journey that was…